Mysterious Musings

Yes I'm on LiveJournal again....it's pretty much become summer-type, 3-post habit.

I haven't logged on in forever but the last draft posted that I had cached in here was something about "lonely hearts" and really far too emo than I've been for a while. I wanted to post what was there just for comparison sake, but it's really nothing special.

So after the chaos that was E3 (I could go on about that but that's another post) I've started work and now budget my time very carefully. By that I mean, I'm so tired at the end of the day, I can only do something if I REALLY want to do it. Otherwise, I take a nap or something along those lines.

I've been binging on "Fate/Stay Night" and I must say it's a pretty well done show. I don't exactly know where to place it. It's not quite an adult show but it's more than your family/shonen-type deal. Outside that, I'm hoping to make it to AnimeNext. We'll see what happens. Never made it to a con before.

Also, 500 Days of Summer. I'm excited.

So, as I make my way into another working week I begin to feel the numbness of being idle. I feel like there's much more I could be doing this summer if only I didn't have to work every day. But then again I would have any cash to do things if I didn't have a job...what a Catch-22. But we fast approach another school year. I'm still a bit rattled from freshman year so I'm trying to be very careful about my habits this year to make sure I don't struggle with my grades. The more important decision, however, is where I'm going to go with this education of mine. Communications is like be undecided while having the satisfaction of a major.

It's only as of late that I've become terribly aware of life's cycle of routines. To overgeneralize it, we attempt to gain more qualifications to gain access to something new. Through this something new we acquire even more qualifications to get to the next level. It's a never-ending spiral of achievement and, while it is admirable to be an achiever, I believe that sometimes it's necessary to stop and just DO something. Not take a class for credit, or read the news for contemporary dominance. Take up something like Magic, Sleight of Hand, an instrument...ANYTHING...just for yourself...you'll find that you feel awesome...

Again, testing out ping.fm to see if it works well with my live journal. So far, so good, but I'd like to see how much text I can submit that it can handle.In other news, I'm working every day so you don't really see me submit on here...which explains my need to post with ping.fm. Coming down the pike I've got more work and I'm hopefully seeing The Hush Sound this August on the 25th...which is just in time before I head to school the day after....god it feels like the summer went too fast....

This is a test post from ping.fm to see if I can post full-scale journal entries to LJ from my AIM account. If so this is friggin' sweet. If not oh well who cares.

So begins life after memorial day weekend. I thought it would never come but, alas, here were approaching the wee hours of Wednesday, Cornflower Blue day. I eagerly await the coming weekend and the coming days this summer has to offer. Still something troubles me, as troubling things always do.  I've taken stock of my job, the weekends, and the scattered amounts of leisure time I have this summer and I've alotted the hours accordingly.

One-Two evenings a week are devoted to Rugby in order to get back in to moderate shape (some abs never hurt)
Monday evenings reserved for AmGlad (American Gladiators to the untrained)
Weekends are saved for big things such as journeys down the shore, hang outs with friends, family stuff.
The rest is free space, I suppose.

That being said, I have yet to cover the one thing that bugs me. Summer romance. Suuuuuuuuuuuure we all joke and jest about it. (Hey! I met a girl named Sandy!......ah wellah wellah wellah...oh Grease)
But I feel as though it's an obligation. It's prime season for me to search for a partner to enjoy the vacation with and get some feelings out. Also, if I don't, I fear I may be doomed to a life of bachelordom. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but my point is, if I can't find the balls to go out and get her now, I'm never gonna have the correct mindset to pursue the girl when it really counts.  I shall cautiously approach the coming days with reluctant decisions and cautious steps.  And if I'm lucky, I might find the right dating scene for me. And maybe have a little fun along the way.

So let the games begin, I say! Ladies, you know who you are.

"I thought what I'd do was I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes. That way I wouldn't have to have any goddamn stupid useless conversations with anybody."

Yeah, Catcher in the Rye quote...Lame I know. I just feel that I should put something in here. Expect more. Maybe.

I exited the gateway that links the two great buildings known as 'Champagnat' and the Student Center together. Feeling an air of creativeness, I gently breezed through the byways that span throughout the campus back to the grand manor of Sheahan Hall.

And now I'm here.....

This calls for a more serious LiveJournal entry. I've just returned from the common room, in which we were watching a pretty poor quality piracy job of Superbad. Now while I must agree that the comedy is great, I find that much of it is based on the more naive of those in teenage society. For example, the main character Seth, while well versed in modern party practices, rituals, and code, subscribes himself to a greater standard with the beliefs that these things do not matter that much and hopelessly believes that there is something greater to be had from it. He holds greater respect for his crush Becca. He wants a truly strong relationship to last between them, and not some mindless, drunk, hookup. That's the story of Superbad I watched....and I felt sorry. I long for things to be much more simple, and less destructive. I don't want to risk my health or status for a physical pleasure. I may be a hopeless romantic, but I am not going to risk myself, for a relationship. I am not that desperate. These relationships I've seen made lately are based on a purely carnal instinct where either one or both parties is interested in only physical relations. The facade that is put up is a mere ruse where, again, either one or both parties feign emotional interest in the other just to maintain that initial, carnal desire. It seems to me that I'm almost the opposite. I search for a nice emotional attachment and have to put up facade to hide that, so I can blend in and note act out of social turn. That not to say I wouldn't have a fairly fun time drinking or partying...it's just I can't enjoy mindless hookups. I think I skipped that phase of my life.

In summation, I want things to be less complicated. I want relationships to be easier to read. I want people to be honest and not hide from their feelings. I miss the freedom!...I miss the freedom! I miss.........

1:30.......8 hours till my first college class. I think I'm gonna get some rest.
Played DDR today on Anthony's sick ass steel mats. It was awesome. And Dexter" is SIIIIICK.

Here we are on livejournal again. Wow...he's actually seriously posting! On to the actually story of my life. Finally got my lappy (laptop) today. It's a Lenovo Thinkpad T61 running Vista. The specs are nice and it plays UT 2k4 like a charm. All I've really been doing is Facebooking it stalking the usual suspects, and hanging around with the Otaku Crew. Feeling alright...women done got me down and I don't know what to do about it...maybe I'm gonna write a blues song...or blues up my song.

So here I am...finally...on my laptop at last. It feels good. I can resume stalking people and facebook and discovering things that I don't want to see.....oh and not to mention get re-connected with all the dear people I miss. Not much else to say. I'll around if any of yous want to talk to me...which you will...which you will...

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Wow....Matt's on Live Journal.....don't all get up at once.

Frankly I wouldn't be here if I hadn't caught James posting on his....so alas...here I am...with so much and little to write. I guess I just go through live journal cynical phases. So I'll try and be brief...bulleted list time!

In!:
-Bioshock
-360
-My Sister
-Marist
-42nd Street
-Smash
-No Regrets
-The Shore
-A taken Bonnie Lass/Fair Maiden
-Matt Ryan Connection
-MRC Song to said Lass/Maiden
-Turner IT
-Infinite Hope
Out!:
-High School
-Emo
-EBX
-Finite Disappointment

So.....it's friday. Taking a deep sigh of relief. Nothing too new as per the norm. Hopefully I'll have something interesting to show you all someday soon. James, I've learned almost all of "Evaporated". Thought you'd like to know.
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Matt out.

Well today goes well. Nothing too new. Studio Art project number 3 is going well to my card/magic/gambling recurring theme. I like that alot. Still keeping my fingers crossed about my job. Tonight is a "make or break" night, as it were, since the understudies shall be announced. I can't take too deep a breath since the last results weren't spectacular (/understatement). Gotta some burgers waiting for me. MMMMMMmmm This IS a TASTY BURGER! (Pulp Fiction for those of you reading this not in the know. All zero of you.)

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Matt

Hey folks!

Been looking forward to this time of the year. I'm in pursuit of a good job at EB Games. With this I may finally be employed and have what I'm looking for. Everything else except this is the same. Except for maybe studio art. Yeah. Now Studio Art is what I call a fine example of a class. It's not a do nothing class but it sure is enjoyable.


Matt out

Hey folks. I'm still here. I just wanted to say that. Also gonna remind you that this is tough crap to remember to do. Livejournal is either a commitment or a rarity...nothing in between.

At the shore now.....got nothing really to do. Been picking up the magician's trade again. Come check out my magic in person. I wanna start doing it for a side job but most people think it's for kids. I could bear to do it for kids who just want to know how it's done. Maybe I can get an apprenticeship under some good magician. Awww well I'll get pretty good eventually. Peace....

...and practically 7 months ago was the last time I really posted on this (sorry james). Perhaps it's important that I learn to reaffirm the goings on in my life through LJ instead of rolling with the punches. Heck, who knows? It might help me out with what's to come.
So Joseph is underway and we scramble to make it all shiny. Leaving for practice in an hour or so. Gotta get a new iPod as the old reliable went the way of the fryPod. MMMMM Toasty! Trying to get into a facebook account. The good folks over at F-Book are in the midst of processing data through my school e-mail account. I am also anticipating the repair and glorious return of my gaming PC. Well it's more of an all-around Otaku PC as it provides spacious disk space to house my anime and hearty processor power to run Half Life 2. Not much else to say. I don't lead very much of an eventful life. Not even online. By the way, there's an open (sort of) invitation to my shore house this weekend.